This has been one crazy summer for me. I closed our business and have been out of work for over a month. I've played lots of golf, done some fishing, took the family on a vacation, and worked on a few things around the house.
My feeling of self worth has suffered. That good feeling at the end of a productive day at work has fallen to the wayside. I've made some changes in my personal life to overcome those long standing shortcomings.
My tenure with the worship team at Bridge has ended. I am so proud of those guys and am amazed at the way the team has grown. I have full confidence that they will reach greater heights in the weeks and months ahead and look forward to wonderful reports. I was blessed to have an opportunity to play with them for a season.
Where do I go from here? That's the big question for me in my life. There are more things that I have to take care of and I don't seem to have the motivation to do them. I struggle with fear. I know I need to simply trust God, but it's easier said than done for me.
It's interesting to observe the people around me and how they respond to where I am in my life. I've had a number of people send words of encouragement. Some of those "encouragers" are people that I would never expect that they even cared much about me. Then I've had some people who I thought would care, but used the opportunity to assert their psuedo authority and kick me while I'm down. Oh well, that's their deal, not mine.
Through it all, I've learned who the true friends are. I count it a blessing to have real friends who show their care and concern. I realize how important it is for me to be a true friend to others, especially if they're facing some major life changes.
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Hey buddy~ Love the blog~ I read "The Age of Miracles" by Marianne Williamson last year, and it not only spoke to me, it downright SHOUTED! :) Check it out if you've got a few moments at the end of your day....
They say you can't really understand until you've been there and there's some truth to that. With Steve unemployed for a full year until just recently, we can understand your thoughts and fears. I don't have perfect words for you, other than keep your faith in Christ during this time, even if it's as small as a mustard seed. I know mine certainly was that small many times. Okay, a lot of of the time. I heard recently that you can't have a "testimony" with a "test." And I know God was teaching me some things in the last year about what's really important in life, and how blessed we really are with our families and friends, which is more important than things or status in life. (Not that I was thrilled to be learning those lessons -ha!)
Oops, that was WITHOUT a "test." =)
Hey Buddy, Just remember you are loved by many, I'm one of them!
Use this special time with your family and enjoy yourself. God will let you know when its time to start another chapter in your life. You know he provides for us, even when we have given up hope. I'm an example of how he cares for those he loves.How many times did we visit in your office and marvel an what God can do!
I'm sure I will talk to you soon!
God Bless!
Life takes us on journeys where we can see a foot ahead of us. That is just part of trusting God, but I think you already know that :-) I struggle at times with being down emotionally...and wondering where the $ will come from to live on. God has never failed me and His timing is perfect. Whatever He has for you, He will bring it to you in His time. Struggling emotionally is harder than most people realize. I know that if you start giving your time to others less fortunate than you....you tend to appreciate the blessings in your own life. You are good at encouraging others...maybe you could seek out those who need some encouragment and do your thing! God wants you to be about His business and your life will fall into place. I love you and know you have inside you what it takes!!!!
Always remember the Lord is in control and only wants the best for you. He will see you through the days ahead. Jer. 29:11
You are an amazing man with skills, talent and a heart for God. Change seems to be a general theme for most of us, if not all of us. It is hard to live out faith. I don't think God expected us NOT to wrestle with faith. I'm sure that's why He reminds us that His mercies are new every day. My prayer for you is that you'll be able to hear God's direction and that it will be confirmed in your heart. God is doing new things in all of us. I truly believe He is preparing His people for something. It's so hard to know God's leading when we are flooded with concerns and riding the emotional rollercoaster but He is faithful even when we feel our faith is waning. You are still His cherished son and He will, in His time, reveal His perfect plan. You’ve needed physical rest, now may God give you spiritual rest, my friend.
Hi My Precious Friend Timmy,
I am so sorry that you are going through such a rough period. I know that it is difficult but the Lord will grow you, albeit painful, through this trying time in your life.
On a brighter note...I can't wait to live close to you, Bren and the kiddos!!! We will go through this together. I am arriving without a job! I will see you in October!!! "Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think." Eph.3:20
My cup runs over. Ps.23:5 Our God is a God of abundance!
Timmy...I'm on my way...let's go fishing!!!
Texas Kimmy
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